Gom Hastam (I'm Lost)

You may want to use headphones if it’s too quiet. I did translate this one. It might seem a little scattered. I did my best :)

Translation:

I love you, do you hear me? But right now, I can’t. Mom isn’t here anymore. There are talks of money. My sisters say they helped. But where were these two? They visited mom maybe twice a year. I’m the one who was there till the final moment. 

You ask when I can speak with you. I don’t know. And I can’t. You say I’m cold. That I don’t know myself well. Today, I don’t understand why you’re still here. Why don’t you leave? I don’t want to look at you.

Believe me, I didn’t mean it. Right now, my heart’s living in water. I need a deep breath. I want to become lost but not within myself. I’m tired. I’m hurt. When everything’s too peaceful, I get scared. I don’t want to lose you too.