Wired

Strung out days
I became attached to you
Like any substance I find
To relieve what I endure

The patience you have
Can’t be the same gift I give you
I’m swaying from a beam
As newcomers point and pass through

It’s not your love
That could save or end me
It’ll only be me
My ally and enemy

Cause this didn’t happen overnight
It took decades, from my parents’ breaths
Through the years of my childhood
To the present and what’s the last

I hold you like a delicacy
But I am my father’s son
I have to step away to free myself
From what I’m wired to become

Bad prevails good
I’m kneeling while I stretch the truth
God’s hanging around downtown
He’s mapping all I’ve been up to

The disappointment you wear
A shade that doesn’t quite suit you
I’m close to losing sight of land
With a life vest I can’t use

It’s not your love
That could save or end me
It’ll only be me
My ally and enemy

Cause this didn’t happen overnight
It took decades, from my parents’ breaths
Through the years of my childhood
To the present and what’s the last

I hold you like a delicacy
But I am my father’s son
I have to step away to free myself
From what I’m wired to become